DESIGN TEAM DREAM!!!

As some of you know, one of my goals for 2006 was to on a Design Team. This is something that I have wanted to do for sometime. I have applied here and there... but not consistently. Over break, I decided I was going to start submitting more. Looks like it paid off...

I am so excited to be part of the team! There were many talented ladies who applied. I don't know all of the details just yet... but I am hoping to have a great experience! I can't wait to get started!

Another Layout

Just thought I would share a quick page before I head out for the day. Taking Kat to get her hair cut and to Build-a-Bear. Kristen is coming with us... so it should be a fun day!

Creative Juices are flowing!!!

So I LOVE being a teacher. I mean I really love it. I also really LOVE winter break. The holidays are almost over, so I have time to just create. Chris has been off the past few days too, so he plays video games and I play in my scraproom. It has been awesome! Now reality is starting to set in... lesson plans and a yearbook deadline are calling my name. But I am not giving in just yet. I still have a little more time... and how much will I really be able to get done with the kiddos the first day back anyway? :-)

So here are two of my creations from today. I am in LOVE with this paper from KI Memories!

Now back to my scraproom for some more creative time. School will be here before I know it! :)

Just the two of us

Here's our Christmas photo taken yesterday. We didn't even plan the red and green sweaters! :-)

We may or may not be heading up to Chris' parent's house. He isn't feeling great, so we'll see what this morning brings. It would be nice to have a few days to ourselves here at home. We'll see.

I did work on a scrapbook layout last night. I am hoping to put the finishing touches on it this morning. That's the first thing I have created for myself in a *LONG* time. I'll post photos when it is done.

I am also going to get back into submitting my layouts to magazines and other calls. One of my personal goals for last year was to get published. I don't think I put the right amount of effort into it, so I am going to renew my efforts and continue to submit. I scrapbook for myself, but it would be incredible to see one of my creations in print. My friends are always so complimentary of my work and have encouraged me to continue working to get published. So here it is in writing. One of my goals for 2006 is to get a layout published in a magazine or other publication.

With that said... I am heading into my scraproom to create! :-)

Merry Christmas

Just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas. Last night was great. We had my immediate family over and we had a great time. I love my niece and nephews very much. I ended up opening the toys that Mommy and Daddy said no... LOL. We played with the play-doh right on my dining room table! What are aunts for anyway?

Thought I would share a few photos of our Christmas decorations this morning:

This is our tree. We decided to go artificial a few years ago... but I wanted to make sure it looked real. We're pretty happy with this one!

This is my table set for dinner. We really don't have room for any more at the inn! :-)

Here is my nativity set... LOVE it. It is from Willow Tree. Each year, I try to add a piece to it.

I am awake early this morning... it seems that I never can sleep in on Christmas morning. The magic of waking up knowing that today is Christmas is still alive and well. We are heading out to my Aunt's later this morning to share the day with my extended family.

Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas!

Last Minute Gifts

So I totally forgot that we had a party with some dear friends tonight. I have made something for their three girls each year... altered comp books, altered paint cans, etc... I didn't remember that the party was tonight until 2:00! Yikes! So I decided to make paper bag albums for them this year. I like to use coordinated papers when I have to put something together quickly. The first one uses chatterbox, the second KI and the third Christina Cole. Love all of these papers. Here they are:

Reflections

Reflections

It’s 8 am on Christmas eve EVE.   There are so many emotions tied with the holiday once again, that I thought I would take some time to get some of them out.  So forgive me if you stumbled on my blog looking for scrapbook layouts!  :-)

Each year I tell myself that this will be the last Christmas that it is just Chris and I.  I tell myself that by this time next year, we will have a little one to share the holiday with.  That’s what gets me through the holiday.  I’ve been telling myself that for *6* years.  I really don’t think that I believe it this year.  I have my moments when I am really positive, but those seem to be far and few between.

You see, Christmas is so centered around Children- as it should be.  Every commercial, every mall, every store, every moment is geared to sharing the magic of Christmas with children.  Chris & I are blessed to have nieces and nephews to share the holiday with- but it just isn’t the same.  They aren’t OUR children.  We have to borrow them for a moment in time.  Our only children have too much fur…people might look at me a little funny if I took Romeo to go see Santa!

Chris keeps reminding me that we are very blessed to have each other.  I couldn’t agree more.  One “side effect” of our infertility is that fact that our marriage has gotten stronger.  There were moments that I didn’t think we were going to make it.  We aren’t perfect.  Our marriage isn’t perfect.  But we have each other and have shared so much of our lives with one another.  While I am so very grateful to have him and our marriage, I continue to feel that part of “us” is missing.  Yes, we are a family the two of us.  Yes, I treat our furry ones as children.  I feel as though Chris and I have so much to give a child.  I think our marriage would grow even stronger if we had the common mission to raise a child.

I am also frustrated because money is tight.  I know that this is not what the holidays are about.  Somehow having gifts to share with others and ourselves seems to take some of the “sting” out of the holidays.  Is it really the right way to do things?  No.  But I can tell myself that if we had kids we wouldn’t be able to have as many nice gifts for each other since we would be spoiling our child.  I’ve always been really sensitive about money.  I grew up in a home where money was usually tight.  I swore to myself that I wasn’t going to live that way.  However, both Chris and I have service careers without the salaries.  So, we live the life we have.  I don’t mean to sound materialistic… really.  I know how lucky I am to have a house over my head and food to eat.  There are more than enough presents under the tree.  I just hate having to worry about money.  I think that I am also frustrated because so much of our income has gone into fertility treatments.  And here we are… another Christmas just the two of us.

Christmas should also be a spiritual time of year.  I hate to admit it, but my faith is very challenged right now.  I look around at all of the children in the world without loving parents and wonder WHY?  I wonder why God has chosen to keep Chris and I from becoming parents.  I have pretty much lost my faith.  I’ve prayed and prayed for a child to come into our lives.  My prayers have gone unanswered.  In some cases, we have ended up with more heartache through miscarriages.  It’s hard for me to embrace the reason for the holiday when I feel lost.

I am working hard today to get into the holiday spirit.  The shopping is done.  The wrapping is almost done.  I need to make a few things, add some decorations, and clean house.  We are having my family over for dinner tomorrow, so I need to make sure I have everything I need.

Wishing you all peace this Holiday…